Help a Sista Out!

Could I share some hard truths with you? Would you be willing to listen this morning? Yesterday was quite challenging! I was feeling off, not quite myself. I was struggling with feelings of sadness and frustration. God has been incredibly kind to my family and me. Life has truly been a blessing. I have witnessed God's handiwork in every aspect, and I mean every aspect. I just couldn't shake that feeling. Despite all that God has effortlessly done in my life, I still managed to find fault. The burden of my past was pressing down on me. My current situation and where I believe I ought to be occupied my thoughts. I understand how the enemy sow's seeds of regret in our minds, and I was simply watering them. I was utterly overwhelmed, with tears of exhaustion, frustration, and sadness overtaking me. I truly started to lose sight of my identity, or at least the identity God has given me. In the past, I relied on fleeting things that provided only momentary comfort. No glass of wine, no attention from men, and no evening with girlfriends would suffice. This time, I knew that only God could handle these feelings and concerns. I sought God's guidance to steward my sadness appropriately during this time.

I started reading His Word. I went through the Proverbs assigned for the day and my daily devotion, which was quite convicting. Following that, I started exploring scriptures to understand who God says I am and to find the next steps for moving beyond this mental fog. After reading those, I offered a very sincere and honest written prayer to God. I hope my openness has been beneficial to you, as writing has been extremely helpful for me.

Here is my prayer:

My Prayer:

Lord, I come to you feeling a bit discouraged. There are things that I want and desire that I do not see happening. I am struggling with trusting Your plan. I want things how and when I want it. This may be very selfish of me, but it's my truth. I am sad and frustrated with how certain things are happening in my life. I want assurance and a NOW answer. It is getting difficult walking by faith and trusting your hand, although I have seen it time and time again. Lord, help me to steward this season properly. I do not want to lean on small comforts that are temporary. I am taking my concerns to you. God, I need you to do something with this! I pray that you cover my mind and protect my heart. I pray that you remind me of who I am. Moments like this, I'm feeling overwhelming emotion and tend to forget who You say that I am. Help me, Father. In Jesus name, Amen.

Scripture:

Don't worry about anything, but in everything, through prayer and petition with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any moral excellence and if there is anything praiseworthy, dwell on these things. Philippians 4:6-8

But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for His possession, so that you may proclaim the praises of the one who called you out of the darkness into His marvelous light. 1 Peter 2:9

Song:

"Royalty" by Tasha Cobbs Leonard