A Mothers Story

My sons and I on Easter morning outside creating memories after a wonderful brunch and great church service.

My story began on April 14, 1984. God placed me in the care of a wise, analytical father and a strong, nurturing mother. The two were the embodiment of wisdom and strength. At that time, I was the only girl but not their only child. I had two older brothers that I adored. At the young age of nine, my mother passed away six days after giving birth to my sister. For many years into adulthood, I experienced feelings of abandonment and neglect due to her passing. I bore this pain over the years. I have been married twice. My first marriage was over before it began. My second marriage survived 13 years. My four handsome boys were conceived from that union. They are my pride and joy. During and after the separation, I started to waver in my relationship with God. I struggled with brokenness and my identity. I felt lost and didn't recognize the woman staring back at me in the mirror. I entertained relationships that looked promising but in the end were detrimental to not only me but my faith. I remember wanting so bad to be loved and treasured by a man. I laid my morals and standards to the side for things, people and ways that I wanted to make right. I wrestled with suicidal thoughts and feelings of no longer being needed. Woo! That was a deep, dark, bottomless pit I did not see myself climbing out of.

There was barely a glimpse of light. Fast forward to the year 2024, God said, "Enough!" He transformed my mind, my will and my way. He placed His desires in me. It was a miracle! He called me to do a 40 day fast. During that time, I was being renewed. He removed people and things that were a disservice to my purpose and blessed me with my very own Peter, James and John. I am committed to living in obedience and not taking any action without God's guidance. I chose Him as He has consistently chosen me.

Reminder:

God's love for you is infinite, perfect, unwavering and unconditional. He loves you through all your faults and wrong decisions. God's love is more than a warm, fuzzy feeling. God's love comforts and protects. His love for you will never fail. God's love for you is PERSONAL! You are HIS! He calls you His own. You belong to Him. LET THAT SINK IN FOR A MOMENT...... Let the Love of God abide in you on this Mother's Day, forever and always.

Song:

" The Story I'll Tell" by Naome Raine

Scripture:

For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well. Psalms 139:13-14

Prayer:

Lord, I thank you for never letting go of my hand. Thank you for being the God of second chances. Thank you for not giving up on me and leaving me in the middle of my mess.

You waited for me. Where would I be father, if you left me?! I am grateful for your unconditional love and your amazing gift of grace.

God, you did it! All the glory belongs to you.

You snatched me from the grips of the enemy and called me your own.

God, I thank you for your leading and guidance in this season.

Thank you for removing the shame and allowing me to tell my story.

In Jesus name I pray, Amen.